Universal Employment

Assigned a new job this month. The universe decreed that I should be me. Who is this me that I should be? A me that can just 'be'. No title, no authority, no personal goal or direction. Follow the universe and catch the breeze. Nothing to do but to be a Self, the one connected to the One, the one without the many and the noise. I am

unLinkedIn

, yo.

Requiring no executive regional management decision, quorum, panel reviews or corporate-blessed titles, this new position is the one I have always been looking for. As Mooji says' What you are looking for is where you are starting from'. Well, starting from my true Self, the nobody, I have arrived at the place of wonderment, my true Self, the nobody. Liberation!

Service area:

Reality and

t

he world I am connected to in Oneness.

Schedule:

None. On your own.

Dress

: Extremely casual and respectful of cats and other living things.

Behavior:

Grateful, thankful, respectful and loving. Heart open, flowing like water around contention.

Just be practical, don't be a tool.

Primary Duties

: Listening for the teaching, shutting up, staying still and quiet in the heart and receiver dish wide open to blessings flowing all around. Receive, pass blessings and love on, repeat.

No office, no cubicle, no fake good morning smiles for co-workers. No co-workers! No sense of a past or future, now is time to be, time is only what is NOW and it is what it is. What will come of it will be the job the universe has declared, decreed and seeded.

Today's journey

:

Observe, letting the play of life pass without judgement, without a mental construct or concept of what should be based on the body/mind's false identity of a 'me'. Main objective? To lose the 'me' of the mind, to mind the 'Self' that I am, to 'Self' be true and let it be, let it pass, and enjoy the emptiness of surrender.

Net Net

: It's all being done, so showing up is all that is needed, nothing to be done by a doer or thinker, planner or strategist. No BlinkedIn, FaceSpace buddies, Twittfreaks, FeedFarce, MeatSpace, FlakeFake followers, sycophants or saddhus. No office manager or supervisor in sight, thank you very much.

Projections

: Inner harmony, peace, wisdom, awareness, stillness, space and the obligation to give freely from what is received. To incorporate all blessing, prayers, wishes and goodwill sent this way and to return it in music, poetry, prose and images that may do the same for another. As Damian Marley says: “More love, more life, more solidarity”.

As long as we do not lose site that we are part of the connected Source, we will be alright. Remembering that the Source is dancing us, there is less pressure to prop up the role of one who is in hardship. The soul is not in hardship, our mental position of who we are,and what we 'should' be bringing home is impacted. Our changeless, impersonal self that is connected to all life will always be-perfect. Nothing to be done but surrender and accept what is. Good to be back to work as an employee of the universe.

What are your new job projections? Does the shitty downturn in the job market affect your job you are doing for the Universe?

Just be

Updates!

Follow Psiplex on Twitter:

@psiplex
Would like to get artists and creative folks battling cancer to connect so I can write some articles about staying creative in complexity with cancer. How is creativity being used to make your life more meaningful?

Electronic Music on the iPhone

Remixing music the next wave in consuming music?

The app lets anyone with an iPhone, regardless of their level of experience, mix and

remix

every song in the album. This is only the first step: The company plans to apply the same approach to several other electronica albums as well.

Colon Cancer News link

Article on Truth

Exquisite writing on the nature of Truth

Here is a mind-opening sample:


Truth and the Work

The correct perspective from which you can do this work is always to be aware of whether you are interested in the truth of what is happening right now, or whether you are trying to achieve something. Are you doing the work now to acquire something, to arrive at a certain goal, or are you doing it because you love the truth? This is a shift in attitude that is needed for us to finally understand the hopelessness of the situation. You are caught and divided because you still have hope that things will be different. That hope creates desire, the desire creates rejection of what is there, the rejection of what is there creates division, the division creates conflict, the conflict creates suffering, the suffering then creates searching. The searching creates more rejection and more conflict and the cycle continues. (Diamond Heart Book 2, pg 72)

-- also --

Mooji Satsang Podcasts

Mooji Blog (new)

Mooji Official web site

One Love

PinC Bubble

We are 'girlfriends helping girlfriends'. A 'girlfriend' is a professional in the hair, skin care or makeup industry with a giving heart and desire to be of service to others.

Headquartered in Atlanta, GA

PinC Bubbble

offers a WORLDWIDE PROGRAM dedicated to the inner and outer beauty of women undergoing chemotherapy and other types of treatment for cancer and chronic non-contagious diseases by offering personal, group and self help instruction on hair, skin care, makeup and personal appearance. In Addition,

PinC Bubble

is a COMMUNITY for WOMEN. Offering a Wig Shop, Store, (Set Your Own Pace) Travel Club, Speakers Bureau, Events Planner, Monthly Newsletter, and Featured Care Giver of the month. Advertisers and Sponsors enjoy the opportunity to reach and support a large number of women.

There has never been a time when services like those offered from PinC Bubble are needed. Director

Mimi Long

has some welcome advice about

Feeling good about You

:

What are some of the things we can do to achieve this and feel better?








1.

Have a Positive Attitude - It's contagious and you become a magnet to others.






2.

Do something Nice for someone else every day - "It is more blessed to give than receive." It works - try it!






3

.

Be Grateful for what you have - It can make a house a home; a meal a feast; an acquaintance a friend.






4.

Remain Curious about everything - It keeps your brain active - have you ever noticed that the minute you are asked a question, your brain immediately starts working to find the answer?







5.

Don't Miss Anything - attend everything that you can - it will keep you feeling young and alive!




Signing up is easy

and there is even a special charter membership price which can get you started quickly. Once your online form is completed, a Pinc Bubble representative will contact you within 24 hours.

Pinc Bubble can show you how to take care of your skin, enhance eyebrows, eyelashes, blemishes and head coverings. Pinc Bubble wants you to look and feel better. If you cannot come to a group or individual session, just follow our easy step-by-step tutorials. You can get started on the

Makeup page

to see the steps. It's a good thing!

Psiplex applauds Pinc Bubble for reaching out, educating and giving strength and support for cancer patients, survivors and their families. Well done!

Other Quick Cancer Resource Links

4 Strategies to Reduce Cost of Cancer Care

Warning Signs of Cancer from Christus Spohn Health System

Talking to a friend or relative who has cancer from Christus Spohn Health System

What is Inflammatory Breast Cancer? From Christus Spohn Health System

Understanding Chemotherapy from Christus Spohn Health System

Cancer to be World's Top Killer by 2010_Article

More coming next time...Here is one of my favortite GC quotes —

George Carlin Quote

: “Hooray for most things!”

One Love

Around the Psiplexiverse

As February kicks off, wanted to share a few useful links online with the Psiplex mode of staying creative in complexity. In this battle with head and neck cancer, the author stresses the importance of staying in the fight and discovering your true Self, not the roles you play. A mix of serious and fun items for the week.

Philosophy

Live in the Moment

Cancer Facts

There will be a post dedicated to the good folks at

PinC Bubble

coming up later this month-please be on the lookout for it!

Sweet Flickr slideshow

! of Winter NAMM Synthesizer gear. This slideshow on Flickr has even more great pics of upcoming gear releases as pointed to from the Psiplex

Hardware Synth Gear

preso.

W00t! Check it out! The author's synthesizer gear lust knows no boundaries, as a teaser, here is a slideshow to fuel the fire of creativity!

Brand new Psiplex LifeSeries #4

out now on the

Psiplex/Psibase ISSUU

link. Also available as a PDF slideshow on the

Psiplex Slideshare

link at:

LifeSeries #4 from Psiplex continues the quotations from the previous series, this time offering more from Mooji and his book '

Before I Am

". Also available on the

Psiplex YouTube page

. LifeSeries #4 features a new instrumental electronic music track that will be available as a downloadable MP3 for 'plexin' around your own universe.

Special Shout out to my new friend and fellow fighter

Juan Palma

- Major Dude of the month! As boxing fans, we both get up for the bell to face each new round.

You never know what you are capable of unless you answer the bell, get up and fight.

“You can't learn to be fearless from anyone but yourself” – Psiplex

One Love

Creative Writing, the Phrase Series

Psiplex has

ISSUU

s! Well, three new pieces of creative writing on

issuu.com

to be precise :-) Clicking the image will take you to the page.

Additionally, the Psiplex LifeSeries presentations that I create for the

Psiplex YouTube channel

are converted for ISSUU 'books' also. In the upload stage, there is an option to choose for adding audio which is nice. In preparing the iWork Keynote files for YouTube, I just export a PDF version to be used for the Psiplex

Psibase ISSUE page

It makes for a tidy production flow and keeps all the fun intact by focusing on content rather than hoops to jump through.

Over the course of the last month or so, it has been a lot of fun to share with you some observations on life in the form of photos, prose and poetry. The Phrase series is an assemled ongoing collection of these observations that I hope you enjoy. The cool thing about using ISSUU is that the PDF files created can be uploaded and shared to view, print locally, embed in web pages and download. It looks like you are flipping through a book with a lot of options to zoom in, zoom out on images or text and to scroll through pages in an intuitive manner.

As for adding audio to your ISSUU document, you just have to have an audio clip, like an MP3 file on a server with the absolute URL ready to go. During upload, expand the media tab or go to my library, select one of your documents, and press edit. Expand the media tab and enter a url for the a playlist (m3u) or a single mp3. Press 'test' to verify and the save. You can see an example of a poem I created called '

Dribbling'

with an MP3 instrumental added, just look for the little speaker icon to turn it on and off. This is useful if you want to add your voice to a document that better explains your content. You can also add video to documents in a similar manner.

Hope you get a chance to see what ISSUU can do for your projects, share your experiences here and make some comments. I am more than happy to share with you how I created these documents, exported as PDF files and uploaded and tagged the series. ISSUU has made it all very simple and quick.

There is a video on ISSUU that explains how to

publish your works

and share your content with the world

Make some use of it and have fun!

“Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose.” - Steve Jobs

One Love

Putting Positive in the World

Wanted to share some positive vibrations heading out into the universe. First off, there's the

Underground Art School Calendar

that is simply cool.

This kind of positivity presented freely to the world is so important as it makes us realize that consciousness is working for our greater good. The Underground Art School

blog

is a good place to get the vibe. A pleasant surprise to see this type of unicity. Don't need another 2009 calendar? This one, matey, you do. But...

deal

.

PosiSoul ready for review!

Started a small series of intermittent and extemporaneous poetry/observations I call 'Phrase'. A short collection of poetry, prose and images used to share some vibes. You can view, download, print or save the new PDF release at the Psiplex ISSUU link:

POSISOUL

Phrase Series Started

Between the knotholes on the plywood of life comes a collection of poem and prose that I call 'Phrase'.

Check the 1st burst of Phrase on the Psiplex ISSUU Url

. Photos are used to illustrate a phrase, a kind of still shot of life at various moments. '

Phrase

,

Very Well Then'

is a collection of oddities that are random, candid and sometimes nothing completely at all. Phrase is a PDF document. You can download it by clicking on the image or view, download, print or E-mail it from the URL given here. The complete randomness and unarticulated meandering of

Phrase

is exactly why it is presented. Some of life is just random and unarticulated, yet has a lasting impact. Phrase has no lasting impact. It is impacted and presented as a point, or, as my friend from New Orleans states “

a pernt

”. This is my

pernt

— the play of life cannot be other than what it is, random, beautiful, horrific and right now. This post is dedicated to anyone who has a scar. You know who you are- pernt taken.

Special thanks to the Mayor and the Ambassador

Two very special friends who go through travails with me-

Mr. Fasil

and

Mr. Miron

, part of the family like two brothers! Salute!

New favorite quote from Mooji: "All beings, graced with the urge to simply be, respond to Truth."

One Love

Hardware Synth Gear W00tList

Previously, we looked at some personal favorite

vintage synthsizer and beat box examples

that have a high W00t factor. This post explores a hardware synth and related gear wish list or W00tlist! These are personal faves and by no means comprehensive. Just a quick snapshot of gear to dream about and share with you. A long devotee of electronic music in all forms, Psiplex really enjoys the hardware (as well as soft synth) tweaking and twiddling to create truly enjoyable music pieces. There are new pieces coming out all the time at big shows like Winter and Summer NAMM, Musics Messe, etc. and 2009 looks promising! Until then, let's take a look at some of early 2009's Hardware Synth Gear W00tList favorites.

You can download the PDF file caled 'HdwrSynthGearWoot.pdf'' a 3.5 MB download, or view it at the

Psiplex ISSUU page

where you can view, download or e-mail to your crew.

Send along your gear wish list and share what inspires you in any pursuit of creativity.

One Love

New Year, Classic Sound of the TR-808

Wishing everyone love, light and discovery in the coming new year. Many thanks and big respect for all the good souls stopping by to visit, share and connect with the Psiplex blog. And so this is 2009, a perfect time to wish you all true happiness, true joy and peace in uncovering the path to your true self and your true purpose.

Wanted to share a sound clip based on the '

W00t! Favorite Synths and Gear

' post. This audio clip is a short sample of the venerable Roland TR-808 Rhythm Composer. One of the

best discoveries on this musical journey was the distinct sound of the

TR-808

in making beats in the studio and and gigging. The impact the

808

has had on the music industry is nothing short of amazing. Just to reacquaint yourself, click the play button to hear a short audio clip of the 808 sound. There are some added instruments, but you can hear the 808 beat and its pervasive sound that has been with us for nearly 30 years still a staple and still in demand. That boomin' 808 kick and unmistakable snare, tom, conga and hats are pure 808 goodness. From the 80's to Kanye and all points in between and through, the 808 has its place in music history.

808 Bliss2009 by psiplex

Here is a

W00t Joy Favorite Synths and Gear

In the mode of pure fun and silliness, this PDF presentation salutes creativity, fun and great times playing

electronic music

live and in studio over the years. This personal collection of vintage synth gear is a small chunk of what great exceeding joy and many W

00

t moments.

This post features some of the synthesizer, beat box and other gear that have a blazing hot personal W00t factor. Over the course of producing music and massive amounts of alpha waves, good vibes and joy, this collection has been the most fun. Wanted to share this as a PDF or as the embedded display below. There's also a couple of other favorite things in there that are highly W00terrific.

Although the music gear brings about joy, all true joy comes from within as one follows what is in their true nature. Rather than finding joy and happiness outside of you, it happens when you are doing what is effortless and enjoyable. Additionally, there wouldn't have been any great music moments to use this gear with without the incredible group of musicians I had the honor of jamming with over the years. They truly are stars and enlightened beings. Have a look and send along some things that make you go W00t!

You can

view the W00t Joy PDF online at my ISSUU link

where you can flip through it like a book, download it, share or print it

Enjoy!

Hidden Virtues From the Tao Te Ching

Reading '

Living the Wisdom of the Tao

”,

The Complete Tao Te Ching And Affirmations

from Dr. Wayne W. Dyer (

Book on Amazon

) has been a joy. There are very special passages that are written pointing to our oneness (great personal theme) with life. In particular,

Verse 16

from the book on page 35 has prompted this sharing. In the preface to the verse, Dr. Dyer has written his impression: 


Amidst the rush

of worldly

comings and goings

I observe how all

endings become beginnings

16

th

Verse

Become totally empty.

Let your heart be at peace.

Amidst the rush of worldly comings and goings,

observe how endings become beginnings.

Things flourish, each by each,

only to return to the Source...

to what is and what is to be.

To return to the root is to find peace.

To find peace is to fulfill one's destiny

To fulfill one's destiny is to be constant.

To know the constant is called insight.

Not knowing this cycle

leads to eternal disaster.

Knowing the constant gives perspective.

This perspective is impartial.

Impartiality is the highest nobility;

the highest nobility is Divine.

Being Divine, you will be at one with the Tao.

Being at one with the Tao is eternal.

This way is everlasting,

not endangered by physical death.

What a wonderful way to contemplate our true nature in this play of existence. Seems a lot of the awakened sages and masters had a unified knowledge that all comes from the Source. Many names to be sure, but the Source, the eternal includes our connection as one. As always, Enjoy your discovery, enjoy knowing and the direct experience.

One Love

FUD Levels

FUD – Fear, Uncertainty and Doubt are in no short supply in your real and virtual space. It crawls through every medium and water cooler conversation with its message of separateness, divisiveness and unusual personal complexities. It is a contagion that is big business for media, a scourge for souls and fodder for the mischievous and deceiptful.

In this o

pposite corner of the garden, between infinities, there is a need for one to examine what is true and right and eternal. False gods, ennui and the New Bogus that pass for reality are only ripples of our broiling illusionary false ideals, our steaming pile of FUD.

Fearing and wanting as primary motivating forces are not what leads to clarity, sanity and peace. Both macro and micro views of what we believe is reality contribute only to what is essentially h

idden from yourself. You true self has no need of FUD, doesn't produce it, and doesn't apply it. Your true nature is not fear or lack or anxiousness although acted out, your true nature is rooted in love. Recommend watching the

Psiplex LifeSeries 2 video clip on Unicity

, or Oneness (we are all connected) as well as other is the series. Additionally, a Slideshare presentation of the poem

'Half'

can be useful for understanding our connectedness and unity and intentions.

Recognize and find what cannot leave you. Recognize who you are by knowing who you are not. In a previous post titled '

Apparent Loss of Control

', there is need for recognition that the roles you play and the identity you carry is not your true self.

Only Divine love an comprehend what we are in and out of the duality of existence and bringing us through grace to Oneness. Harmony truly comes when there is a disconnect with a natural state of living, an everyday world through pain, suffering, tragedy, loss, etc. Divine love and harmony are there always waiting to bring us to the reality of the Source, the unchanging and eternal.

One Love

Medical Brief and Decisions

The PET Scan taken on December 15, 2008 determined that indeed, the cancer nodules are very aggressive and spreading. Since the diagnosis exactly one year ago, it is fascinating, in a disjointed way, to see how cancer moves so fast in the body. Essentially, the

PET scan

traces the intravenously injected sugar to see where it binds to. The place with the most sugar collected is inspected for cancer which feeds off sugar (in part, although this is way more complicated).

The decision now is to see what can be done to isolate and treat nodules that are starting to split off and spread and to find the best manner for this. In the meantime, hospitalization has been the best course in combatting the

CDIF

infection incurred as a result of

antiobiotic colitis

which is seven kinds of nasty. The extreme diarrhea caused by CDIF and the weight loss on an already weak immune system is pretty rough. Pain management is another concern. Getting these two complications under control was the main thrust this week. More consultations this week and more chemo on the way.

As for staying creative in complexity, a new fresh new second part of the quote series on Vimeo is available. What I call the LifeSeries is quotes found to be helful on this journey.

Unicity

is the title of this very short clip on my Stillness and Silence channel. More updates soon.

One Love

Medical Brief- an Update

New medical update this week. No big changes except visited new cancer specialist surgeon at Emory University Medical Center here in Atlanta. Confirmed that the cancer is spreading aggressively to left side of tongue and neck. There was a train of thought that after the removal of the submandibular gland last month, the spread would be halted, however, the aggression/spread is faster and causing falling behind the eight ball rather than be in front of it. The next step is a new chemotherapy cocktail that is completely different fro the previous cocktails used back in April. The previous combination will not be effective as there is a type of immunity built up that prevents the chemo from being effective.

The next step is a review of the current CAT scan, getting a new

PET scan

to determine how far the cancer has spread. Thus far, it moving into the lungs which had not happened before. There was a point, around May/June of this year as if it was eradicated, but returned in July back on the tongue after chemotherapy and radiation. This is when the right radial neck dissection was used to remove lymph node nodules. It was again halted and from late July, after partial removal of the

right side of the tongue

from there to late October, there was improvement. November brought more tests and during a followup the

spreading

was detected back on the left side of the tongue. Now, there is preparation for another attack at the cancer to get ahead of the eight ball. The decision will involve the use of limited chemotherapy and surgery to remove the remainder of the tongue. So, lots of adjustments to consider. There is the strong possibility that plastic surgery can be used to reconstruct enough of the tongue for some mobility and swallowing-to be determined. It is what it is.

In the meantime, continuing to stay creative amid complexity by composing some short electronic music pieces, some slide presentations of quotes going to

YouTube

and staying positive and being still in the present moment.

Grateful for Grace, friends, family and the light folks are sending!

One Love

Recycled Into One

As part of the One Consciousness, Christ Consciousness, God Consciousness, Buddha Consciousness, the Tao or the Absolute, we are all connected. In recent posts addressing the state of this shell, the body/mind of this person writing and dialoguing with you, this name and SS#, this being, the play goes on, being. The human part of the human being gets recycled. Whether by disease, accident, unfortunate circumstances or the general way of all passing things, our physical body/mind passes. The being, our essential Self, our true nature, often referred to as spirit is always in a place of awareness and no-time, which is eternity. Eternity is not a 'long time', but 'no-time'. We are connected by our being as by our humanity to each other and all things.

With the body falling away, we will be where we always were, our changeless state of being. the recycling of the body is the arrival of our physical presence on the shore of life for a short while and the receding, or tide moving out is the body's way of being recycled. This natural process is at it is and is seen throughout nature. Our contention with it is that we have a notion of and end to life after he body passes. It s not so. We already are connected to the Absolute, nothing to be done or strived for. The consciousness we are is connected and continues. Our body/mind and the identification with it goes and is no more, but the true Self continues as it ever was. No contention, no striving, imageless, the perfect stillness that came and returns from emptiness. It is with emptiness that the body/mind identification has the problem. Not many can stand to have their carefully crafted identity removed. It our purpose to find the true self, our true nature, which is love and in love there is no fear. In a past post about being

UnLinkedIn

I mentioned that the importance of where we focus our attention on, such as an identity and the 'me' we take our self to be is not the true Self, which is the being, the eternal. Indeed, it would be sad if this 'me' were to be no more. The joy and peace of being comes when we realize that the being, our true nature, love is what we are already, and have always been. It is already done- you are perfect as you are. Explore and discover for yourself by asking yourself in stillness 'Who Am I?” Don't attempt to get an answer like a list, just try the process and see who it is that is this 'I”. Who is it that watches this “I”? Can this itself be observed? You are more than the body/mind, the space you take up and the roles you play. Enjoy your discovery, enjoy knowing and the direct experience.

One Love

Challenges and Refusal

After a particularly physically

challenging

three weeks, this small slideshow of quotes really helped to put things in perspective. It is called LifeSeries for its content of selected favorite quotes encountered online. These quotes, from self realized teachers, masters and amazing individuals, focus on the true Self. Inquiring into the sense of 'I Am' can bring an observation of clear awareness and reveal what it is you are not. Music track by psiplex.



LifeSeries_Quotations About Self Realization from Psiplex on Vimeo.

Online PDF for free download available

Complications - Update

While the last two weeks have been rather cheerless with complications from surgery, it has also been very instructive and not without joy. Two Friday's ago, this body/mind emerged from anesthesia to a new world o' hurtin'. More cancer was removed, which in itself is good, but troubling as it means growth has not stopped. It is what it is, and new possibilities are being looked at. There is no ideal situation, but there is a journey.

The body/mind works pretty well with routine. Breaking it, in the form of surgery, different diet, pain management and side effects of same can really throw the natural balance far afield. In this case, that is the case. This new unnatural rhythm promotes different thoughts and physical reactions. Keeping this observation in present awareness allows what is necessary and useful to continue and what is not to be dropped.

The journey alluded to earlier is a mostly horizontal one. Being in bed a good part of the day is not a first choice, but one that is required for rest and recovery. What is realized is: Love is still love, the Divine that looked after me to this point still does, those brave souls who love me continue to do so and there is a new respect for life even in these circumstances. This, in the words of

Mooji

"is a temporary form for the expression of emptiness". I am aware of this cancer, but I am not the cancer, nor its cause nor its course. My true natural Self is part of life, combined with life and flowing with life. The cancer has an expression in awareness, but is not awareness, which I am. That may be a little tough to steer through, but it simply means that my true nature is life, peace, joy and love. There is no identification with the cancer as a 'me'. It just is. In stillness, in the present moment, I am connected to life and therefore all is being done as it should.

Out of the Hospital – Cancer Update

This past week has been a week of patently unexpected results, of turnarounds and non-linear, seemingly non-connected events. A week of non-conclusive, yet painful strings of events and hints of other things not yet determined. Doesn't sound all too clear does it? Here is how it played out. Went in for pre-op at the hospital around 11 am for a 12:30 start. Met with the anesthesiologist and surgeon, got the party hat and was wheeled into the OR at 12:30 pm woke in recovery about 3:30 or 4 pm and was not really fully awake until about 6 pm. For some reason, always have trouble coming out of the fog of anesthesia immediately. Staff in the recovery room is notified of a permanent room available around 7 pm and up, up the elevator to the room to settle in. My wife, my strength and my best friend in life is crying. She says to keep fighting. I said sure, you know, that's what it is all about. She and the surgeon had talked and it turns out that the sub mandibular gland excision went without a hitch. Real easy going. The unexpected part was the biopsy on the left side of the tongue. That's why my wife was crying. Apparently, the cancer had done a skip-tissue, which was explained to me as hiding or camouflaging itself in the existing swelling and scar tissue only to reemerge at another spot, my tongue.

The surgeon said there is no way (as of that day) to know if they got all the cancer. He said that there are other treatment centers around the country that have an extended program for post surgery skin grafts and experimental programs. With this case, the Surgeon just couldn't tell if the cancer would still use the skip tissue to resurface. After exhausting all of the available chemo and radiation therapy treatments, surgery is the only way to keep up with the cancer. There will be more follow-ups and tests over the next few weeks, but to hear that the cancer is still progressing after all the other surgeries and treatments is still a trip.

Cancer, in this case is like a fight with a championship professional boxer who has an unorthodox style. Kind of like

Manny Pacquiao

or

Joe Calzaghe

. Sure, they can do all the basics, but their strength is their unorthodox style in which you get hit from somewhat impossible angles- you never see it coming. Oh, their defense is good too, so what you throw back might not get in. The non-linearity of cancer's patterning is one of its deadly strengths. So now the process is to be aware of any changes and keep the followups and options on the front burner. Thanks to all you who have sent personal E-mails! Grateful for your love, support, prayers and strength! Gonna be wobbly for a bit, but should be able to post more shortly.

Click on the link to

Christus Spohn

Health System's article on dealing with a family member's cancer during the holiday. Thanks for checking in!

One Love

The Battle Rejoined – Cancer Update

This week brings another chapter in focus on my ongoing

battle

and survivorship with head and neck cancer. Learn more about a general description of head and neck cancer at

Caring4Cancer's

web site

as well as the

National Cancer Institute

, the

CancerCare

link as well as the

American Cancer Society

During a follow up visit to the ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat) surgeon about 6 weeks ago, there was a concern over some scar tissue and swelling in the region under my chin. Previous surgeries for the right radial neck dissection and

hemiglossectomy

(partial removal of the tongue) along with the radiation treatments seemed to have impacted this area under the tongue and below the chin called the

sub-mandibular gland

.This is one of the glands that make saliva to help break down food. In this case, the subsequent swelling and closing of the gland has caused a lot of discomfort and is not alleviated by a standard prescribed steroid called

Prednisolone

. After six weeks of various antibiotics and Prednisolone, the sub mandibular gland is still defiant. The only solution, at this juncture is to have it removed by surgery. The procedure itself is not a drastic one, nor necessarily painful and will allow the other salivary ducts to 'take over' and create saliva even when this one is removed. The surgery is scheduled for this Friday, with about a two-day hospital recovery expected. Previous surgeries and the nasty radiation treatments will make this a bit tougher, but not impossible to recover from. Seems the more surgeries after treatment makes the system have to work harder for healing resources to spring back, but it is all possible with good rest, care and nutrition and exercise. Stitches come out in a week and everything gets back to 00.

So what is the current state of affairs? Here is a quick breakdown:

Fears/Worries

: None, why? It is what it is. The Source that has brought me this far in this eternal present moment is sufficient to do the same. All out of my hands, so there is nothing to do but live fully in stillness in this present moment in joy, peace and thankfulness.

Past thoughts

: Looking behind me, there is no past to convict, taunt, worry about or consider. The past is just a thought like a passing cloud over a blue sky. I may notice a wisp of cloud and go on my way. There is no past, good, painful or otherwise. This present moment is sufficient :-)

The Future-Worries and To Do's

: The future is a thought projection that falsely creates a scenario of what 'I' will be if there are no actions/some actions taken to be a 'better self'.
outside of necessary schedule planning and preparation, there is nothing to consider. My 'Self' is present and aware right NOW, the future is just another present moment. If one is not happy in the present, the future can only ever be another present moment with a different calendar date. Learn more about being aware and joyful in the present moment with these previous posting on Psiplex:

Drop the Concept

:

Infinity Deep

Apparent Loss of Control

Look What I Did! Controlled Delusion

These posts point to finding your true nature, who you are beyond the narrow and limited description of the 'me' you identify with.

Sure, going in for surgery is never a welcome prospect, but in battling and surviving cancer, the battle must be engaged, the process trusted to the Source and the awareness, acceptance, and lessons of the journey apprehended in surrender and gratefulness. Resistance to this is morbidly stupid, as

what to be got to be

(Bob Marley). So, presently, there are not worries, just a quiet observation of the facts arising in consciousness and a joy and bliss in being here right NOW. New posts next week!

One Love

Recognizing Your Self

Put together a new short video clip around the subject of '

Recognizing Your Self

'. The 'Self' being the true nature of who you are without identification of the role you play in everyday life. 'Recognizing Your Self' is a collection of quotes from the masters that point to realizing the true self – Who you were before you adopted the 'me' you think you are.

a lot of this ground has been covered in the previous post called '

Infinity Deep

' which you can check out by scrolling down or clicking the link.

This clip appears on the Psiplex Vimeo channel called '

Source and Stillness

' as well as the

Psiplex YouTube Channel

The most important factor to consider is taking a look at what dissatisfaction there is in the current state of life and following the self inquiry “Who Am I?” to discover what it is you really, really want from life and the path to your purpose in life. It is my wish that the quotes shown in the video will inspire and point to what you may be looking for – your true self behind the veil of illusion.

Recognizing Your Self from Psiplex on Vimeo.

The links in the video from quotes of self-realized masters are as follows:

www.sriramanamaharshi.org

Mooji.org

www.maharajnisargadatta.com

Please leave your views on searching for what it is you are not, and what you discover.

One Love

Don't Fit the Profile

In updating my

LinkedIn

profile, there is a realization that a lot has changed over the past 10 months. This realization brings up the point that unlike most

professionals on LinkedIn

, I no longer fit into a bright, upwardly arcing, potential-rich profile. What has changed? Well, for one, I am no longer actively self-employed, employed by an outside company or freelancing as a hired gun in any meaningful way. I have no outside income from these practices and I am not actively seeking employment. There is no active Résumé, no list of accomplishments in which to seek or entice a respected employer. There is no one at the office working to be a better office worker. There is a dearth of professional accomplishments added to the story of 'me'. Oh dear, what is to be done? Admittedly, I am

not

what networking should be - I am, as it were,

UnlinkedIn

.

What can this mean? Well, for one, there are no engagements, meetups, conventions, seminars, interviews, frantic emails or tweets, no second interviews, or followups on this calendar. It appears that I have failed the number one priority of LinkedIn, in which one actively constructs relationships with desirable professionals who will in turn consider one for future opportunities. To whom does this position offer value? To whom might this condition of

unlinkableness

be useful? There will be no Harvard Business School grads or Fortune 500 companies actively searching my credentials and skill set to hire me for their next big design project. Boo hoo.

In considering our relationship to the purpose in life, our life purpose, there arises a sense of balance and clearness of purpose, of

Being

. As with previous posts '

Apparent Loss of Control

','

Drop the Concept'

,'

Infinity Deep

', and '

Changeless

'

An interpretation of this search for the true self is explored. Discovery of our true nature, our natural state of being, is of the utmost importance and can be considered the path of life purpose- your alignment with what is and acceptance of your purpose to and in life.

The previous posts all dealt with using the self inquiry of 'Who Am I” to get to the point where you know

what you are not.

Once this is made aware to you, there is a deeper understanding of the true self, that which is beyond the misinformed, misdirected and mislabeled identification with a false, external 'me'. Using the present moment as a springboard for this self inquiry, one can find that the true 'I' is far more expansive and 'real' than the reality our conditioning would have us believe. All the rest of our roles we play on a daily basis fit inside life, not the other way around. Our roles as Manager, Mommy, Daddy, Grandparents, brother, sister, professional all fit into this container of life. Work is not life, well, not for everybody. There is nothing external to life that you are defined by in reality. You may associate certain thoughts, patterns, behaviors and beliefs, all coming from the mind-made projection you call your life to life, but it is not. There is the Being part of the human being that is causeless, changeless, aligned with the Source of the Universe and beyond the need for an identity other than what it is. It just is, Being means that you can just 'be'. Nothing to add or do in order to be who you really are- consciousness aware of consciousness aware of itself in consciousness. It doesn't even require a name. Oneness- connected, done.

The last 10 months of battling head and neck cancer has been a journey to find the real purpose of life beyond this identification of 'me'. Who Am I? What is my relationship to the purpose of life? Am I really willing to love? Am I really ready to let go of the false self that is a SS#, a male, a graphic designer, a cancer patient, a tax payer, a statistic? What is there beyond this? These types of questions lay bare any and all pretenses that surround the purpose of life and one's purpose to life. Facing the falling away of this mortal body, what is there really to cling to based on my profile on LinkedIn? Is being dead or half dead a reason to be conflicted about one's profile? Sure, there is relevance to being fully immersed in life, having a successful career, raising a family and perpetuating oneself beyond this timeframe of existence. To be honest, what really matters is that one can awaken to the true reality of 'Who Am I' and be at peace with the results of this inquiry. Knowing, as Mooji says, 'That which is can never not be' is the primary result of not being overly concerned with being dead or half dead and needing to it to be 'okay' within a social construct, a concept.

What has occurred in this healing/surviving cancer process is that what is not a part of life, what is not true, what is not love, what is not peace, what is not joy, what is not health, what is not oneness, what is not acceptance, what is not spirit, what is not eternal has fallen away. I look behind me on my morning walks and there is no past to convict, no future to obsess about, no worry about what will be or will not be. It is what it is. No great displays of visions, fireworks, old poets, holy emanations, burning shrubbery or pillars of smoke or flying saucers. The mind ceases to chatter incessantly, there is more expanse for the beauty of each new moment, each new day, more stillness and an appreciation for the space surrounding things and the things contained within those spaces. Simple, honest gratefulness for the present moment and a love and trust that the NOW is perfect, nothing to do, nothing to strive for, nothing to be changed, nothing to contend with or strive to 'be'. In fact, there is just being- which is a full time occupation. There is no regret, no remorse, no sense of right or wrong, no caring or not caring. It is and that's fine. So I guess 'being' has become an occupation, if one finds that necessary. There is also the seeking aspirant who is being broadened and deepened to understanding and knowing of self realization. 'Who Am I' is the gateway to discovering what this journey holds. Until next time, it feels pretty good to be UnlinkedIn.

One Love