Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Knocked About

Rough week with the accumulation of chemotherapy, radiation therapy and side effects. Knocked about by this combination has left production of the blog lacking. Had to go to the ER last night for pain management. The ambulance ride itself was quite an ordeal. Kinda like being jarred and bumped around inside a carnival ride, only you don't feel all that well. It's amazing to see how completely impersonal medicine and the whole healthcare system has become. Coming from a small town, somewhat idyllic time when doctors made house calls and genuinely cared about how you were doing. Today, with medicine as big business and 'systemized', there are only a few nurses med techs can doctors who exhibit what caring used to be. Okay, I'm whining.

Just something about taking that physical pain threshold of '10' and enduring it longer that you think possible is capable of re-wring the noodle. The nurses and doctors ask 'What is your pain level on scale of 1-10?' (1 being the easiest, 10 the worst). It's a way of managing the pain level and getting you recovered. In this case, being at level 10 for long enough cause the body to shut down, there's just moaning. No real thought happens, nothing spiritual, just the physical organism's way of preserving vital function as long as possible until there is relief. Whew.

A good chance of completing the next Psiplex LifeSeries in the next week. This once consists of some original quotes and life introspection. It will be posted to YouTube & ISSSU. Will put the word out here & twitter. One Love


  1. AP,

    Thinking about you! Wish I could do more. Wish I could take your pain away!

    One Love!

  2. I hope you are feeling better. That's a pretty intense experience you had there, and one I don't necessarily envy. I was really looking forward to reading your blog regularly, now that I'm back in the states. Got back home yesterday, and what a joy it is to be here. It's actually a joy to be anywhere right now, and I'm loving that feeling.

    Write more when you feel up to it,......... please?

  3. That you take in pain but give out love, Psiplex.. makes you divine!

    A blue object is blue because it absorbs all the colors and reflects the blue. You are known by what you give out.. not what you take in.

    (Core for "Namaste" meaning Respect as in bowing to you.. )

  4. To all...my little brother, Alan Palmer passed away April 15, 2009. My beacon of light in life has certainly not extinguished but shines even brighter in eternal life.
    One Love.....little brother.....
    Cheryl Palmer

  5. I just posted a memorial to Alan on my own blog at:


  6. Alan, I'm traveling again and writing more. Wishing you were in mortal form still to write your insightful comments. In case you need the link where ever you are, here it is: www. explorationsoftruth.blogspot.com. (haha). I miss you. I wrote something this morning where I said, "I believe the consciousness of the world is raised one moment, one person, one relationship at a time." You did just that in your time on Earth. Thank you for that. You can rest well.

  7. I'll see you on the other side!
    R.I.P. AP :)

  8. 人生最重要的一件事,就是從生活中認識你自己。 ..................................................

  9. I love readding, and thanks for your artical. ........................................

  10. 人生中最好的禮物就是屬於自己的一部份 ..................................................



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